killin' me smalls

   slow down, we've got time left to be lazy.

   all the kids have bloomed from babies,

   into flowers in our eyes.

feelin' fierce

china glaze - purple panic/sally hansen - quick sand/sally hansen - black out/sally hansen - hardener

i went balls to the wall and did my nails last night, gang.

i'm taking clients starting pronto.

i'm in love.

anyone have any tips on how to make it last longer? work has been DESTROYING my manicures.

i should probably just quit, huh? i see no other option.

a special kind of love letter

let's just get this out of the way really quick - i have been really slacking on the big sister thing, no? my heart hurts. i miss you both more than ever. i want nothing more than to wake up to feet running around above me and screaming and have it be you and not a bunch of rambunctious, annoying college boys. i don't forgive them for that. you two, though? i forgive in an instant. most days i would do anything to have you come wake me up in the morning - even if it is way too early for me to be awake. i wish that our schedules weren't complete opposites and that you little dudes didn't have to go to bed before i'm home from work around 11:00 at night so we could talk and i could hear about your days. i want to hear about the new belts i'm sure you're earning at karate and the advances you're making with your trombone, jake. jack - i want to hear that you went to circle time and it was fun even though you don't believe us. 

in case you didn't know already, i talk about you all of the time. people probably do not want to hear how beautiful my brothers are on a daily basis, but i still talk about it. let's face it - there are no cuter babes than you. and in case you're wondering - i will call you both baby brothers for the rest of your lives. i don't want you to be any older. i'm still in shock that we just celebrated a fourth birthday and an eleventh birthday is quickly creeping up. ELEVEN?! are you kidding me, kiddo? it doesn't seem right. i remember sitting in the hospital on my tenth birthday right after you were born, jake bake. it was the most wonderful birthday ever. do you know a lot of girls ask for a baby brother for their birthday? well, they do. and i got one, so that makes me really cool. i know you probably don't think i'm that cool anymore, but i know jack does. take it from him, he's totally right. 

sometimes i wish i could sweep you two up and put you in my pocket and keep you forever. just how you are. innocent and damage-free. i wish i could pull you out of my pocket when i need a smile or a laugh. when i need a hug or even a kiss. i want to lay on the floor for 45 minutes while you run into my feet and ask me to hoist you in the air. i want to be the "red car" and crash into yours because it makes you laugh. i want to tickle you both because your uncontrollable laughter makes me laugh and there is no better feeling. 

i promise i will be a better sister.

i promise i will hug you a little tighter next time i'm home.

i promise i will always, always be obsessed with you.

baby brothers - thank you for being the boys i can always depend on to love me even if i slip up. for thinking the world of me even when i least deserve it. you are my favorite people in the whole wide world and i can't imagine life without you. 

i love you more and most.

xo - ken.

my two forever valentines

i might be slightly bias, but these two little boys are the most beautiful things i've ever laid my eyes on. i really hope i have daughters because i don't know how they will ever compete with the amount of perfection of these two. this valentine's day i don't need any boy to take me on a date. i don't need flowers at my door. i've got the two most wonderful valentines and i get them for the rest of my life. 

happy valentine's day to you 

& good luck competing with the good looking boys in my life ;)

xoxoxo

it's not right

i am normally pretty opinionated when it comes to politics. something i try to stay away from on this blog. mainly because a lot of my readers are my age and generally pretty liberal. i've always said that i don't exactly belong in my generation. if you want to read my mind - go visit raven. if i went there, it'd be a carbon copy of her thoughts.

however. i am in complete support of gay rights. i think it has to do with the people i'm friends with and just my generation. i have basically grown up with this being "accepted" by my peers and by the time my brothers are older, i feel like it will just be the norm. i have many gay friends and one of my best friend's mom is as well. if they're happy, why stop them? it's doing nothing to my life and, for the most part, none of the people in my life are trying to smother me with their views. 

earlier today, someone posted something on twitter that made me absolutely sick to my stomach. a gay couple in iowa had a still born son and upon receiving the death certificate, noticed that one of the mother's names had been removed. might i remind you that gay marriage is legal in iowa. not only did they have to deal with the loss of their baby, but this, too? there is absolutely no reason.

there is a petition online that is simple and quick to sign. if you disagree with this, please, please, visit this page and add your name.